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Nov. 3rd, 2004 09:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Clarifying...
I don't think it's the end of the world. I'm not moving to Canada. I'm not convinced that we're doooooooomed. And I'm extremely happy for the gains that did happen, and that things could have been far worse.
I'm not any less angry or upset, either. I've been doing the hoping-for-the-best thing for so long that I want a day of depression and gloom to break down in; then I can go back to putting one stone atop another, one good deed, one person helped, one victory won. But today feels pretty damned bad, regardless of the limitless potential we still have, the power in change and anger, the things we've accomplished and the things we can accomplish.
In spite of all that, today still feels damned bad. And I do the (comparatively) Happy Shiny Optimist thing a lot, so I don't think I'm being irrational by taking a day to bellow.
This anger is real. This sorrow is real--even if Kerry ultimately wins. Today, they're what I can feel.
Tomorrow I will put them aside, shrink them down, and use them to make things different.
I don't think it's the end of the world. I'm not moving to Canada. I'm not convinced that we're doooooooomed. And I'm extremely happy for the gains that did happen, and that things could have been far worse.
I'm not any less angry or upset, either. I've been doing the hoping-for-the-best thing for so long that I want a day of depression and gloom to break down in; then I can go back to putting one stone atop another, one good deed, one person helped, one victory won. But today feels pretty damned bad, regardless of the limitless potential we still have, the power in change and anger, the things we've accomplished and the things we can accomplish.
In spite of all that, today still feels damned bad. And I do the (comparatively) Happy Shiny Optimist thing a lot, so I don't think I'm being irrational by taking a day to bellow.
This anger is real. This sorrow is real--even if Kerry ultimately wins. Today, they're what I can feel.
Tomorrow I will put them aside, shrink them down, and use them to make things different.
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Date: 2004-11-03 07:08 am (UTC)I do. We've talked about it. And I am.
Even if we scrape by, which I doubt we will, this country has proven that it is shifting away from being a home for people like us. How to respond?
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Date: 2004-11-03 07:34 am (UTC)And another interesting thing is that I'm finding myself censoring what I'm writing, even as I'm writing it, out of fear of consequences for disagreeing with them. And that's really scary.
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Date: 2004-11-03 08:06 am (UTC)I have strong feelings about all of this, but maybe hanging out in person, or at least private email, would be a better venue for discussing why I'm freaked out by seemingly serious talk of immigration -- I'm not sure I want that conversation to happen out in the open air. *g* Not for fears of government reprisal, just because this stuff feels very personal to me.
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Date: 2004-11-03 07:24 am (UTC)I'm also finding it difficult to find (never mind 'keep') perspective when everyone's emotions are this charged, even if my own are somewhat blunted and lethargic at this point. There are just so many conflicting issues that are so clearly important to so many people, it's overwhelming. I expect on some level that's fairly universal.
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Date: 2004-11-03 07:25 am (UTC)Of COURSE take a day or a week to be depressed and angry. Your feelings, and everyone else's who desperately wanted Kerry to win, or at least Bush to lose, are totally real. I apologize if it wasn't clear that I know that.
I just worried, with all the negativity, that people were falling into despair. Unlike
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Date: 2004-11-03 07:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-03 08:42 am (UTC)What are the gains that did happen?
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Date: 2004-11-03 11:03 am (UTC)Not a lot, in other words. Mobilization, anger, activity, and a few things not lost. Ask me on a day that I haven't devoted to despair and you might get a better answer.
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Date: 2004-11-03 12:21 pm (UTC)Still feel like crap.
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Date: 2004-11-03 10:33 pm (UTC)